Studying Abroad: Why I am doing it and Why I May Never Come Back

I decided to study abroad and perhaps intern out of the country. I want to leave as soon as possible. I'm talking as soon as this semester here at my current school is over. I am dead serious. As soon as I take my final exam, I want to be able to step out of the technology building into someone's car with all of my bags in their trunk, and be on my way to the airport, to catch a flight out of the country. And yes, I may never ever come back to the United States of America again.
   I love America. What has not been messed up, polluted, and damaged, America is beautiful. It has the most wonderful landscapes, different cities, people, accents, it is wonderful. But I don't like 90% of Americans. Sometimes I'm ashamed of the fact that I am American. Like since I've lived in America my whole life, I have seen some sick, strange, and disturbing things. But since 2011-2012, I have witnessed and heard some things that really makes me take a step back and just have a blank stare.
 African Americans can't walk down the street without being shot due to assumptions. African Americans being put on death row despite of lack of evidence. Mothers being found not guilty of murdering their children despite the fact that the evidence is there. Infants being sexually abused weekly, infants being murdered daily, toddlers being beaten to a pulp monthly. I just think its time to live in the U.K just compare and contrast Americans and the English.
 Now I was a military baby, so I lived in the U.K for about a year or two. I was very young so I don't remember much about England accept that I lived in Lakenheath, my daddy took me and sister to the West Indian festival and he took me to this EPIC baseball game. I do remember eating fish and chips all the time. If you don't know what fish and chips are, google it. But anyway, thats what I remember.
 I claim today, that I will be moving to the U.K soon, if I have to apply for a job working as a court jester  for the Queen of Wales (That doesn't like a bad idea). I am getting the heck out of here. Because first of all, the racism in this U.S is at an all time high and it is getting worse. It is at the point where the Klan could come out any day now riding on horses with hoods on. The approaching election season isn't making it any better because we have black folk in the white house, so Klan is going H.A.M.
 I have my personal issues as to why I want to get out of the United States (let alone virginia) but I'm not going to worry your pretty little heads about that.  It is time for me to pack my luggage (and I have a cute luggage set at that) and LEAVE.
 Pray for me and I will pray for you.

Can I kick it? (Keep It Real)

So today I just want to kick it with my readers with some ranting and raving about some things that have been bothering me. Granted we are all thankful for what we have and we must count everything all joy. Situations may look bleak and you may find yourself in distress, but joy do comes in the morning. You understand what I mean. But I think everyone deserves to pour out their feelings of whats bothering them. Whether you write it down, blog it, vlog it, talk about it, sing about it, or joke about it. You don't have to hold that stuff in. 

  My rant and rave is about a particular job I applied for. I applied. The interview went great. A week later I'm standing in the elevator one of the interviewers tell me "Congrats you've been hired. Expect an email very soon." Another week goes by, and no email. Another person tells me congrats on the new hire several people have gotten their emails on what position they will be working. So now I'm like ok where is my email??? So I talk to one of the staff, who tells me they don't know whats going on its a slight delay. So I send an email to human resources, who sends me one back forwarding me an email that they sent me regarding the position.

  First of all they sent it to the wrong email, that's number one because they misspelled my name. Then they talk about how they're so ecstatic to hire me for an ALTERNATE position and when one is finally open they will contact me. 

  Why in the world did you tell me congratulations I'm hired in the first place if there is not even a position available for me to start working? When you tell me somebody "Congratulations, you've been hired." They are going to be happy at the fact that they get to start working immediately!!! DUH!! 

  So now I have to go back to the drawing board all over again to look for employment!! Not that I ever stopped looking for a job. Its just that whenever I got a rejection email from a potential job I didnt let it get me down, because hey!! I got hired and I should start work any day now!! RIGHT?!!

 But its all good. I count it all joy. I just wanted to vent. 

Should I Apologize??

I had took on an assignment that I could potentially make some money and do some travel. I was really excited because I was good at this field, I feel as though I have the gift of gab, and  this particular person is a writer and so am I. So I felt that I could really help this person, who was already on the map, get all the way on the map. Right? Wrong. Every idea I presented to this person was shot down,, every time I tried to present work that could better help the individual it was patronized, laughed at, or I was sarcastically told that they already knew the business. Needless to say, the person was a joke. What made me mentally step out of my professional pin stripe suit and simple black office  pump, into a pair of skinny jeans, v-neck tee, and vans was the fact that this person had me pull out my emergency rolodex and call in some favors.
  The individual kept arguing about the dates, changing the dates, and being picky about the photography samples I sent them. Then they did what I despised and what I think NO ONE in any business, industry or otherwise do. They started name dropping. Comparing my people to the phenomenal people in the industry and mainstream companies that they knew. Putting down my expertise and the work of the people that were willing to switch around their overbooked schedules for me. I went completely left.
   I first sent a professional kind email about how I don't think I am the person fit for this position. But I was burning up in anger due to the inconveince that was put on me and this particular company. I sent an email about business ethics and I said some pretty choice words. Yeah. I cursed them out. Badly. But now I feel convicted. Should I apologize? Or take it as a lesson that no matter what I should never kick off my office pumps verbally, to anyone?

My new diet

So..Ok..I forgot to tell you'll that I am vegan now. It is much more healthier lifestyle and I feel  better and lighter on my feet than I ever did. Vegan food is not bland, tasteless or unfulfilling at all whatsoever. It is actually very tasty, filling, and it keeps you regular. I have eaten Italian tofurkey sandwiches and I am now addicted to filafel. I like to sautee cucumbers and onions, spread cilantro hummus on wheat and put my filafel balls on the wheat bread and it tastes so good.
  I am also addicted to almond milk, vanilla flavor. It tastes so good when you drink it with nutella on wheat toast with a banana. I love nutella. I know I said I was vegan, and I am technically. But I think crack is in nutella...Its a conspiracy. I also made some ground tofu, which resembles hamburger, I mixed some sauteed red peppers in and I also boiled some wheat pasta with it, topped it up with some mushroom pasta and wala!! It was so good I had leftovers for three days.
  I am very curious about veganaise, it is expensive as heck. 8.99 for one jar and I don't even know what it tastes like. So I didn't buy it.
  I am more slimmer since becoming vegan, and very regular, if you catch my drift. My skin is clearer and my natural hair is more manageable. As I go deeper in Christ I am realizing that I must take care of the body of Christ. I like it. You should try it!!!

I know..Long time..Forgive me

I know it has been a minute but I have been so busy trying to adjust to the big move. God is good. I have a very comfortable warm place to sleep. Spring break just ended...Blah..The weather outside is wonderful...Time went forward..Cool..Longer days, right? So anyway. I have several blessings in the works that I just don't want to talk about right now, but I am so excited about. I have decided to transfer to a university and take online classes. I want to go into deep prayer and meditation with God about it first, to make sure this is the right thing to do. I need a lot of flexibility and I feel as though me being stuck on campus is putting me in a tight squeeze, so it is time that I go university shopping.
  I have also decided to write another book. This particular book will be dedicated to those who are victims of child abuse. I believe this book is going to open doors and bring lots of awareness to the young victims in Hampton Roads.
  I have been reading Bishop Jakes' book "Let It Go". A book based solely on forgiving others, and it is teaching me a lot. Although, I have forgiven others, I am going to be honest and say I haven't yet apologized to some people I lashed out at who I felt did me wrong. I know I need to, but I am just not there yet. However, I must take accountability for some of the action because I was foolish in some aspects.
  Other than that, everything has been cool as a cucumber. Now I must go!! Study time!!

My Evening with Iyanla Vanzant

One word: PHENOMENAL!!!! I laughed, I cried, I high fived, I loved it, loved it, loved it. It was a predominantly black female crowd, that rocked natural hair of different styles. From afros to dreadlocks, from two strand twist to bantu knots. Women who were very well educated that graduated from her Inner Visions Institution, and women like me who were in college trying to finish their degree. There were some brothers there as well who came to listen to her speak, and almost everyone had her book for her to sign. The vibe, aura, and energy in the room was so positive that a wonderful feeling that I just could not explain bloomed inside of me.
  I sat beside a nice young woman by the name of Dr. Gayle Taylor, who had a wonderful down to earth personality and a contagious smile. I found myself laughing, joking, and checking out the brothers in the theatre with her. Come to find out, she was a student who graduated from Dr. Vanzant's very first class at her institute in the 90s. She is a educator who teaches a class at Old Dominion University to prepare future teachers for the classroom. She shared with me her experiences with being taught by Dr. Vanzant. Dr. Taylor stated that it was she, that pushed her to healing from her past. I was so in awe by this information, alone.
  Spoken word poet and actor blessed us with his presence as he performed two powerful spoken word poems that dropped mad gems. Then Dr. Vanzant came in from the back and had us hold each person's hand that sat beside us as she led us into a deep powerful prayer. And she spoke knowledge...She dropped powerful knowledge that told all of us about ourselves, women and men alike. She went way back to the slavery days and told us how we as black men and women have become cowards. She was right. She broke it all the way down for us to the tiniest detail so that we couldn't even question what she was saying. I listened intently and I also learned a whole lot.
  Forgiveness...I have been hearing that word a whole lot lately when it comes to family. She gave a testimony about how she was so angry with her sister that she didn't speak to her for three whole years. Then she got the phone call that her sister died and she had to not only forgive her sister...But also forgive herself. That spoke volumes to me and also taught me alot right there alone.
  The question and answer session was so powerful as Dr. Vanzant as down to earth as she was, kept it so real with her answers to our questions, we had no other choice but to give her so mad respect. She gave us kisses, hugs, sound advice, and lots of love. She told us about her energy master body wash that makes at home herself. She comes from a generation of master herbalist and she uses nothing but fresh herbs grown in her own garden. Please go here http://www.masterbodywash.com/. Dr.Vanzant is also hosting a three day workshop on healing and faith lifting on April 20-22, 2012. I will never forget this experience as long as live, and I do plan to here and speak with her personally again.