PEEEENNNNNNNN!!!! ARRRGGHHHHH!!!

Yeah...I don't know if its the heat...Or the side effect of my meds but I have never been so horny in my life. If you don't already know, I lead a very strict celibate lifestyle. I don't plan on having sex until I get married. Easier said in done when there is sex everywhere I go. On tv, in books, on the computer, sexy men walking around with no shirts on showing off their hot muscular bodies....Ok! Ok! I'm back. Its cool. Anyway, don't get it twisted if I want some I can get some. OKAAYYY? But that's not the point. The point is discipline and obeying God. I have to deny self. I must not be weak to temptation and flesh. LOL. But anyway, I feel like a zombie just craving fresh meat. I feel like I can't take!! I need it!!! *Grabs at clothes* ARRRRHHHHHH!! *tears at skin*..LOL..Its not that serious but if the wind blows my way I get turned on. * Looks at hot guy that just walked past my window*.....Anyway...I am praying, asking God for strength which I know he will give me.
   Maybe its because I don't have any potential guys around me that are worth dating let alone looking at. Then I see couple holding hands every where, pregnant women all around me, little babies crawling all over the place. I feel as though I want a man too. But I just can't settle for just anyone and I don't feel comfortable laying down with just any body. I have to watch my body, cuz I'm not just anybody! *Aaliyah voice* I just have to get that off my chest. Maybe I should start a celibacy club or something....Hmmm...