Accountability

Hello Everyone. I started this blog because it was time for change in my life. I had to learn the hard way, that I must take accountability and responsibility for my own actions. Sadly, it that didn't hit home until after I published my first book, which was erotica.
  Granted, people purchased it, they loved it, they wanted more but I did not have peace. Everytime someone purchased my book, I felt horrible and the conviction was heavy on my heart. Once you give your life to Christ, when you feel conviction it is very painful. Not to point out the fact that when I was writing the book I felt physically weak, distracted, and overwhelmed. I questioned myself twice before publishing it, but published it anyway.
   It sold, then I used it as a marketing strategy which worked because it had people on edge for my next book. I gave out hundreds of copies for free, word of mouth got to bloggers who wanted the book as well.
   A sister of Christ told me about a book she purchased for me called "How to Defeat Satan". The book just pulled me in and I just couldn't believe what I read. I instantly felt emberassment and intense conviction about not only the book I had published but my behavior as well. It came to me that my behavior and my writing was unacceptable and if I love God, I need to honor Him and do things according to His will.
  This is what it is all about and it is time for me to stop being rebellious, and take my life serious.