The Erica Kane Syndrome

I never once said that I was a perfect person. I never once said that I have done anything that I don't regret. I mean I am only human and I pray everyday for God to use me and direct my path the right way. I have recently done some things out of anger that I do regret. I tried to get myself out of the situation my way, to only learn that it could only be done God's way. I tried to turn a blind eye from the situation, told myself that I would deal with it later but it only came back to hit me ten times harder.
 Basically what I am saying is I learned a valuable lesson this month on taking responsibility and there is a right way to rebel. I protest, I write up open letters to people, I speak out and spread awareness because violence and attacks against innocent people and animals make me angry. However, I need to learn to control my anger when I am  done wrong.
  I am going to admit to having what I call the "Erica Kane" syndrome. The need to take revenge out on people who attack and do me dirty. That is a horrible way to be and I feel like the first step to change is admittance. I admit that I have a problem with taking revenge out on people that take the time out to do me wrong, especially when I have helped them in some way. It is a very dangerous way to be and it does bounce right back to you.
 Taking things the Erica Kane way has literally turned my life into a real live soap opera. I found myself in a whirlwind of drama that everywhere I turned I just could not escape it. The lies, the blackmail, threats, trying to use what I call "My gift of gab' to manipulate myself out of situations. It was time to reflect and have a keep it real moment with myself.
 If I hadn't got involved in the first place this wouldn't have never happend. If  I would have just walked away and shrugged it off my shoulders, instead of getting a pissy attitude, then that wouldn't have happend. Yeah. Well should've, could've, would've the point is, it is time to make some changes.
 Ladies it is so not worth it. Just walk away because at the end of the day your vengeance will bounce right back on you. Yes. You will feel good in the beginning, as if you made a valid point to let the person know, you are nothing nice to mess with. But at the end you will think "What have I done"?

 What did I do? Oh trust me. I'll tell you later.