To my beautiful baby,
You don't exist yet and I don't know if you are a boy or a girl...I don't even know who your father will be, where I will meet him, or when. I don't know how many years will go by until I conceive and push you into this world. But I do know for a fact that it will happen someday. I think about you all the time. I think about you as I am sitting in the book store reading a Glamour magazine and I happen to look up and see a mother feeding her newborn. I think about you when I walk by women with round, swollen bellies, glowing with anticipation. Some call it "baby fever" I call it loving you ahead of time, so when you get here you will already be covered in love.
I believe babies should not be made out of carelessness or selfishness, as a pawn or as a trap. Babies should only be made out of lots of love, which is why two people should only make love to create life. I promise you will be made out of good loving from two people that love you very much.
This is a very cruel world we live in and I know I can't shelter you from it but I do promise to always have your back no matter what. Life is so mysterious and it is so unpredictable the way an event can just occur out of nowhere. I just know I don't want you to hurt like I have been hurt, to struggle like I have struggled and to experience pain.
I can't shelter you from experiencing pain but I can help you with struggle and I comfort you when you are hurt. I will never abandon you as long as I walk this earth but I will teach you to swim in shark infested waters and to survive. I will teach you how to weed out the good from the bad, how to outsmart the gamblers that play with life as if it is board game and to never lose faith or your spirituality. Spirtuality and faith is what gets you through dark days and the darkest of nights. This is my promise to you. I love you.
Future Mommy..
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