Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Good Dreams: Is It My Meds?

As you'll know I have Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder due to me being a survivor of child abuse. My PTSD consists of horrific nightmares, a bad phobia of the dark, flashbacks, and anxiety. The medicine that I am on, which is a little pill I take once a day early in the morning is what stabilizes it. Does it work? Yes. Like a charm. My flashbacks has decreased from three times a day to well, I haven't had one yet since I started taking my medication a month ago. I still can't sleep in the dark or be in dark places for a long time or I'll have an anxiety attack, but a night light helps me sleep at night. But what I really like is that my horrific nightmares have been replaced with good dreams. I am having dreams so good I don't even want to wake up. I try to force myself back to sleep so the dream could continue. One dream I was crying and praising God and I was so overwhelmed with happiness that I woke up with a gospel song in my head that I just thought of!!! Another dream I had was of a dark skinned man with dreads sitting on a chair singing in this angelic voice. The voice was so beautiful, the very next night I prayed for God to please give me the dream again. I believe my medication is whats helping me with getting rid of the horrific nightmares but I also believe  God is responsible for the wonderful dreams.
  I find myself thinking with a much clearer head and I can handle myself in much stressful situations. I pray a lot constantly throughout the day and night which builds my spiritual strength. Am I reliant on this medication? Not really. This medication helps me a lot along with the wonderful support system I have along with it. I no longer have insomnia and stay up half the night reading, looking at the ceiling, or browsing the web.  I feel much better in the morning and not so tired and irritable. I have my sleep back!! Praise GOD!!!

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