Having Sex With People Because You're Under Stress and Loaded with Problems

It doesn't work. Plain and Simple. The problem doesn't go away and you end up feeling even worse. You feel so much conviction for having premarital sex that you feel like you deserve to get struck by lightening. And almost always, you feel like an airhead because you wasted your time.
Let's go through a scenario right quick. You're a christian woman, and the devil is alllllll up in your business. I'm talking about your money is gone, bills piling up, no job, no job call backs, you're praying every night, you got the church praying, you're writing letters to God trying to find out what's going on up there, you're just under tremendous warfare and you are stressed out.
So you meet this guy out of the blue, and he looks good. His conversation is nice, he's intelligent and he seems open minded. So in the midst of the conversation you start talking about the problems you're having. He tells you things you want to hear, like "Everything will work out." "You know Golden Corral on Military Hway hiring" or "Let me talk to my manager, see what he can do." So you feel a little better because, you have met a guy that is showing you that he is actually concerned.
  Weeks go by and the guy is blunt and tells you how he wants to spend time with you at his crib. You tell him no you can't, just wouldn't be a good idea. But the guy is persistent, and he tells you how he just wants you to come over and relax because he knows you've been having long days.
  You have been feeling a sense of abandonment lately during this trying time. You have been praying a lot, you've been looking high and low for a job, the stacks of bills are reaching the ceiling and you are feeling forgotten. Like, the rapture has come and you got left behind. This guy is in your ear telling you how he wants to make you feel better, he wants to hold you, he's going through things on his job as well.
  This sounds so good to you because there is actually someone out here in the physical world that gives an ounce about you. A man that actually cares about your feelings! A man that wants to hold you and make you feel better because he understands you're going through something! So you think.
  He takes you out to eat, you'll talk, you're feeling relaxed. He takes you to his crib, you'll are watching tv and talking. He kisses you, you kiss him back. Ball game. *Sigh* *Insert disappointed face here*
  After the deed is done, you feel like God is giving you the side eye. Like He is shaking His finger down at you. Like He is about to write you a no pass go, do NOT collect 200 hundred dollars, ticket straight to hell. Like he has put up a picture of you and a sign that says "DO NOT LET THIS WOMAN IN". Conviction is so heavy on your heart that you are trying to hold back tears as you ask him, "Do you mind if I take a quick shower?" You feel even more emberassed when he shrugs his shoulders, turns over and starts snoring real loud. Then you feel anger because you're like what the heck is he so tired for? It only lasted five minutes! He didn't even make sure I was satisfied! So you and your sore vagina (because he didn't take into consideration the fact that you have been celibate for a year) go into the shower where you cry, repent, and beg for forgiveness.
  Your problems are still there, you still feel lonely, and you still feel abandonment. But don't worry there is always a cure. The prescription. The doctor that is always on standby, if you didn't consult with Him first. Kannnnnng Jeeeeeeesus *singing voice*. He did not leave you. You have not been abandoned. You have not been left behind. He loves you. Gorl, God loves you. He cares. He got your back.
  Let me drop some scriptchaaaaaa! *Preacher voice*: God loves us more than you could ever know *angelic voice* "For God loved the world so much that He gave His only begotten son, so that whosoever believes in Him, will not perish but have everlasting life" John 3:16 (NLT). So He loves you. He died for our sins. You are forgiven, you know what you did was wrong. You know not to do it again. Stop letting the enemy confuse you. We all fall down, but you just have to get back up and do better.
  You are under stress due to finances, bills, credit, and so on because the list goes on. "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest" Matt. 11:28 (NLT). *Shouts* Cast your cares upon the Lord! *Joyce Meyer voice*  I mean stressing and worrying will get us nothing but wrinkles, premature gray hair, and dark circles under our eyes. The only thing we can do is keep doing what we are doing. Doing the best we can to help ourselves. I had to learn that the hard way.
  Worrying is the same thing as stressing. We up all night worried to death about how on earth we're going to pay the mortgage, the light bill, some people worry to death about paying the cable bill. I personally think a cell phone bill is more important than a cable bill. I'm just saying. But we can't worry about things beyond our control. "Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?" Matt.6:27 (NLT) No. If anything it puts you in a early grave. We can not afford to worry.
  We must to continue to pray. I know. I understand because I feel the same way, right now, today. Praying day after day, night after night, minute by minute for the same things to change can be exhausting. I'm going to keep it real....It can be tedious. But...."Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for." Matt. 7:7 (NLT). We have to also remember that God's time, is NOT our time.
Ladies, don't let the enemy in like that. Ever. Love ya!